Our treasured words

I figure, now that the domain is up, might as well insert a bunch of the old pieces I’ve written

And with those words fell silence. Like the last rays of light, my last word hit your ear, and like the first raindrop hits an empty gutter it resonated in the air for what seemed like an eternity. You just repeated it softly. The gentle sound of your voice for once carrying pain and a note of regret. Dare I think that i have hurt you? for so long we used the word as a name tag for all that was foreign yet special nonetheless. With it, we referred to the best of them, one word that meant so much but couldn’t quite cover what we had. For so long we mockingly inserted it into our sentences to describe who we held near our hearts but far away from our own private secret paradise.
And in the empty silence that followed I remembered the meaning of one look of hushed understanding, I thought of all of those moments when we had laughed at the world as if it were only our back yard. The memories of deep conversations and of dreams hit me and i caught myself holding back a tear. Only days ago, this moment of peace would have been filled with meaning, but now, we have gone back to being strangers. Don’t tell me now that you didn’t mean for this to happen, its not the first time that we will go back to square one, but this time it is for the good of us both!
As with bad news, we both share a worried glance, have we lost it? have we let go? the once loud beat slowly dies and we prepare to pay our respects to the ashes of what we were. In your eyes I see a flicker of hope and I remember you were always the optimist, but this time it is too late, and with the first breath of cold air you will understand that that was life hitting you by surprise. And my choice was no mistake…
The others will wonder the reason of your sorrow, thinking how, without love nor hate, could you be in such pain. But little do they know, that what to them is a sacred treasure, was silver to our gold!
A clumsy hug to say goodbye, and tell you that you can always count on me…