So here it is:

I haven’t written anything even remotely worth reading in months. I simply can’t find the right combination of words to express all of the emotions that are going on inside me. 

it has truly been a full spectrum, and I know some of you will jump at this one, no need to worry, I’ve got it all under control. But the last couple of months have really been a roller coaster ride between excited and motivated and suicidal and melancholy. I’ve never felt this hopeless, and this tired, and this alone… I have also never felt this loved, this happy and this in love. 

Ahhhhhhhhhh see…. just writing about it throws me out of whack… time for bed. Its the only solution!